Just a Fool

Another shot of whisky please bartender
Keep it coming 'til I don't remember at all
How bad it hurts when you're gone
Turn the music up a little bit louder
Just gotta get past midnight hour
Maybe tomorrow wont be this hard
But who am I kidding
I know what I'm missing
I had my heart set on you
Nothing else hurts like you do
Who knew that love was so cruel
And I waited and waited so long
For someone who never come home
It's my fault to think you'll be true
I'm just a fool
I said that I don't care I'd walk away whatever
And I tell myself we were bad together
But that's just me trying to move on without you
I'm just a fool
For holding on to something that
Is never ever gonna come back
I can't accept that it's lost
I should have let it go
Held my tongue keep my big mouth shut
Cause now everything is just wrong , wrong , wrong .

Love ! Love !

For me , you're the coolest guy I ever met . You're a good friend and even a sweet boyfriend . You know how to treat me right . I feel lucky to know you and becoming your soul mate is awesome ! You're the cutest person I've ever known . You're superb , incredible , funny and you always making me laugh . But you're annoying sometimes . I could say that making me mad on purpose is your favorite food . Haha . You're not a serious guy , you do things nonchalant . But still , you could manage things properly . That's the reason why I am so attracted to you . You're loving , you'll always be there for me when no one else does . I love you gink  . :)

Best Line Ever !

"I'm not perfect , but you should've waited . I'm worth for it ."

Him + Her = Love :)

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you.... The one who turns to his friends and says, 'that's her.'

- Chuck Palahniuk -

So Fucking True

SCORPIO - The Addict
EXTREMELY adorable. Loves to joke. Very good sense of humor. Will try almost anything once. Loves to be pampered. Energetic. Predictable. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want. Attractive. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Loves to party but at times to the extreme. Loves the smell and feel of money and is good at making it but just as good at spending it! Very protective over loved ones. HARD workers. Can be a good friend but if is disrespected by a friend, the friendship will end. Romantic. Caring.

Dad

Dad , I miss you so bad . It's been a while we haven't seen each other . I wish our family could gather around someday . Like some kind of family reunion .

But I know it'll never happen . I know it well . Our life's change a lot . I don't even know what's the meaning of family anymore . Everyone's busy with their own thing . You being busy with your other family , while us busy managing our life with works , love and others . We never spend our time like family .

I'm not totally blame it all on you . I do understand all your action . You never mean to neglect us like that . You have your own reason . I'm the only one who can still accept and treat you like a father . But Mom and the others , they can't do it anymore . I feel sorry for you . I love you with all my heart Dad . I don't mind if other people saying that you're such a lousy father . I don't mind it all . You're still my Dad . The one that really loves me since I was a child . You gave me all the thing that I asked you to . I'll never forget it . I pray to Allah swt and hoping that our family will be back together like it used to be . I love you Dad .

The Past Is In The Past .

It may sounds crazy but I do adore you since we were friend . Don't blame me for it . You just way too adorable . I can't help it ! :) I love everything about you . The way you talk , your laugh , your smile , your style , it's killing me . I used to call you most every night and we talk about things that happened in our daily life and everything . You're just like my diary . The special one . My night would be empty without hearing your voice . I still remember that I spent my times for about one hour and half , at downstairs just to talk with you , on the phone . I may be stupid . But I really , really like to talk with you . Then I asked you to work at the same place as mine . You resist at the first time but then I force you to take the job . You with a heavy heart , had to accept my requests . You start your day worked with me and yes , suprised ! We lived at the same place , at my house for sure . I am so happy , I could die ! Spending your whole day with the one that you adore is the craziest moment in life . Unbelievable ! 24/7 , with him ! Finally , my dream came true , even though you're not mine . We eat together , work together , watching TV together , almost everything together . But it didn't last long . You got a text from your friend telling you that you got a job . A really good job and without a doubt you say yes . The day you told me that you need to go somewhere faraway from me for doing your job , I feel like a very sharp knife stabbing me , right exactly in the heart . I hide it with a smile and told you to take a good care of your self and do miss me when you there . Once in a lifetime , I felt lost . Well , for fuck sake , I was hoping you're not going . But then , you do and leave me with a broken heart , missing you so bad . Even we're not dating . Crazy isn't it . You resigned , pack your things and ready to leave . Fuck your friends , your job and you for destroying my happiest day . I won't forget about that , one of my good memories and the past is in the past . You're mine now that's all matters . :)    

About us

We're crazy as fuck . We argue sometimes . We enjoy our lives . We were the two ugly people for others but for us , we're fucking perfect . We love to play games . We're childish when we're together but matured when it comes to a serious things . We're faithful . We never try to cheat on each other . There's no secrets between us . We're totally serious in our relationship . We'll never ever let one of us down . We always remember our promise and we'll keeping it . We're okay when people hate us . No worries , we'll just have to hate them back . We're weird and love to do stupid things . We're so fine . We were close friends before dating and also a good friends now . We lost our friends . The fake one . But it didn't bother us . We love to talk . We waste our time with it . We hate it when we had a fight but then we forgive each other . We'll get married , someday . And the most important thing is , we love each other . 

Love ! Love ! Love ! :)

 

 Hi love , I miss you so bad . :(

I'm Lonely

I'm lonely without you . I'll be sad when you're not around . When I'm alone I'll be thinking of you . For me , the worst feeling ever is being alone . We used to do things together so I'm not used to it when you're not with me . I love to spend times with you . You're so lovely and I can't resist it when you tell me that you love me sank :) . I hate it when we're apart . Even just for one day . I'll turn out like a crazy slut and mad all the time and pretend like everything's wrong . I don't even know why'd I act like that . It's killing me for not seeing you . I might sounded like a bitch but that's the fact . I just need you with me .I'm sorry , I vent it all to you . I guess it's just because we always spend our time together .

Afraid to lose .

I'll always remember things that you promise to me . But , 

What if , your love starts to fade away ?

What if , you don't care about me anymore ?

What if , you fall for someone else ?

What if , you hate me because of me ?

What if , you leave ?

What if , you forget about all your promise ?

What if , you took our love for granted ?

That 'what if' thing sucks as fuck . I'll get mad whenever I think about it . I know it's just me , afraid of losing you . And sometimes I'll say something that'll hurts your feeling . I hate myself because of it . I don't want you to get hurt . It's hurting me for hurting you . But still , I made the same mistakes again . All I can say , I'm sorry for what I ever said to you . Sorry for being selfish and childish . I'm not a perfect person . I fucked everything up . I'm a mess . I'm no good . I'll ruin your day . I'm a troublemaker . I'm good in nothing . I know I let you down but I never mean it . I'm sorry for what I've done . I love you with all my heart . I only afraid that someday you'll leave me . I'm afraid of losing you . I never know what will happen to me if you walk out from my life . My day would be lonely without you . I have no one else . No one will ever loved me like the way you do . It is clear to see I really need you . Just promise me you'll stay . Just so you know , you're the only one that I want . I don't wanna lose you . So don't go . 

I want you to stay . Forever .

Life

There's nothing special about my life . I have no career . I achieved nothing . I just need a change in my life . Even though so , I've lived so many lives . There's just too much things I've been through along my way . I have family , broken one . I miss them so much , the old them . The happy times . But I know nothing I could do to make it go back just the way it should . About friends , I have none . I used to , but I've lost them . Thank God I did . They not really real at all . In fact , I don't need fake friends like them . Just stay out of my life . You do your things and I'll do mine . I'll still be fine . I just need someone who really cares about me , always be there when I need them , the one who always told me to do good things . Just like Eyang , she loves me . Thanks Eyang for always be there and support me . So do Gink , he's my one and only . The only one who can stand my behaviour . He made my day . Making my life more beautiful . I could stand for a day by just sitting there and talk with him . He pamper me a lot . He's nice , sweet , kind , caring , thoughtful , pleasant and lovely . My life would be empty without him . He give me hope and teach me how to love with honest . I used to be a fool , immature , selfish and a liar before . But that's in the past when I befriended with all those useless that I call a friend before . Now , it's different . I'm enjoying my new life . More peaceful , with the one that I love and without those stupid people . 

Did You Know ?

Did you know , I always watching you ? I adore you . A lot .

Did you know , how I'm being hurt seeing you with other girl that you called so in love with ? I hate her . Yes , I clearly do .

Did you know , how I really miss you ? I just want you near .

Did you know , it's hard for me to pretend that I don't have any feeling towards you ? You're my best friend the one that always be there when needed .

Did you know , I'd try my best to make a distance between us ? Even though it's killing me but in the end I'm the one who always call you . 

Did you know , that I'm so in love with you ? You're just so nice and frankly , I'd fall for you . No matter how hard I try to forget you , you'll never fade away in fact the feelings getting stronger . Hell yeah .

Did you know , I'd rather spend my whole life time with you ? My hope is just kill all the useless people in my life and I'll be your slave . Haha . Sounds a little bit like a bitch . I know .

Did you know , I hate it when you fuck with other girls ? When you tell me your one night stand story , I wish I could pull a trigger and give 10000 shots right on your stupid girlfriend's vagina . How does it feel bitch ?

Dear friend , I don't even really know what the hell is going on with me but I fucking love you . Now , you're my man , my best friend and all the 'did you know' things is just our old story . I guess the quotes was right , it says that ' If you love two person at the same time, choose the second one . Because if you really loved the first   one you wouldn't have fallen for the second . ' Damn right . :) I wont regret it . You're the best of the best and I'm just the lucky girl who could be with you . I love you gink .

Try

No matter how hard the situation is , we'll still try our best . Pray and tawakal to Allah swt . Hope Allah will listen to our pray and all we can do is try . It disappointed us a lot but there's nothing else that we can do . We just have to face it . Once again , disappointed much .

What Is Love ?

Love is free . We don't even need money to buy them . Love is how we express our feelings . Love is all about tolerance , responsibility , concern , tenderness and goodness . There's a lot of way to describe love . Love is pure . But still there's many people didn't appreciate love nowadays . They still thought that love is just a game . They said they tired of love . Love hurts . Well probably but it'll only happen if you didn't give your best and give up easily . That's the reason why we need responsibility and tolerance in love . If we didn't owned that , be prepare to watch your love fall to pieces . Everyone knows what comes up in our mind when we fell in love , "trouble" . But that's not count because the point is we didn't even choose to fall in love . Feel the love , understand it , take a good care of it . I'm pretty sure you'll understand the meaning of love someday . For me , love is everything . I'll be a dead meat if I live without love . That's why I'll hold on forever with my love . 

Things That Girlfriend Hate the Most

# When their boyfriend spend more time with their friends . She's your girlfriend not a dog .

# When their boyfriend raise their voice suddenly . Do that when you talk to an old person because they're deaf .

# When their boyfriend turning their back while sleeping . They need hug okay not your back .

# When their boyfriend hung up without saying 'I love you' . Guys , that's not cool .

# When their boyfriend talking with some other girl that's not even their friend . Better watch out . You might start World War III .

# When their boyfriend didn't answer their questions even if you repeat it over and over again . The hospital still open if you need some operation .

# When their boyfriend played a song that they used to listen together with their ex . Are we in the same place ? Or you already gone with your old stupid memory ?
# When their boyfriend don't give a shit when they're in a big , big problem . Act like a real man dude .

Guys , please take a good care of your girl . Or you can just sit back and fuck yourself . This might  not be too fair for the guys but just so you know , girl's heart is fragile and easily be broken with just only your words guys . Think about it . :) Therefor girls , don't be a bitch about it . Act properly . Don't flirt with other guys .  

The Reason Why I love You :)

My dear , the reason is you
You're my love and my best friend too
I know everything about you
And so do you .

When I'm feeling down
You'll always be around
With your talk and jokes that you do
Dear , no one can replace you

We share our story
We'll argue each other , maybe
You'll always be over thought
And act extremely bold

My Dear , I've been bless with you
That's not the only reason why I love you
I love you because you are so tender , caring and kind
You're so matured , lovely also the reason why I want you to be mine

Fuck You !

Yes , I have a problem . Guess what , I hate too much . So fuck you , I fucking hate you . I hope you choke and die . You're making me sick . Fuck everything about you . Fuck yourself . Fuck all your unwanted opinion . Fuck it okay . Fuck it very much .You're annoying me . Whatever then , I saw the death of an angel following you everywhere . He's gonna take your life . That's good . You're so fucking dead fucker . Once again , fuck you . This is all about me and for all of you that I hate , fuck off . Just fuck this fucking shit . You're all so fucked up . Fuck you and goodnight . 

My Confession .

I know I'm ugly . I'm skinny and my attitude is bad . I always cause trouble plus I'm fussy . I know I'm not perfect just like the other girl . Sometimes , I've lost my self confidence and I don't even know why . But then  , I met this guy . I feel like he's the most perfect guy in this world . I kept waiting for him , wishing that I could be the one he love until the end of his life . He's humble , respect the older and he knows how to handle things . It's been a long time waiting and suddenly on September 13th , my wish came true . He expressed his feeling to me and I never expect he would feel the same way like I did . I was like , "Shut the fuck up!" . I would having a heart attack that time . I'm feeling like my whole world is stop and the clock didn't tick at all . For sure, I'm in dilemma that time . But I made up my mind and with pleasure I accept him as my soul mate . That was the first time that I ever heard he sounded like a real man . People might say I'm so desperately in getting a man . But who really cares . I love him and that's all matters . For all of this time , I know he's really worth for waiting . Now , I'm happy with him and we just need to work hard until we get what we really want , our life . The halal one . I just hope Allah will help us through our life . :)

D + C = F

Different plus common equal to fair . That's how I describe our relationship . Both of us have a lot in common but at the same time there's still a differences between us . He's more mature than me . I"m a little bit childish . He's always cool but I'm the hot tampered girl. He's always over thinking about something but I'm not . He likes the cold weather but I prefer the room temperature . He likes to waste time with the outdoor things but I'm more into the indoor things . He's more easy to forget and forgive and I"m the crazy bitch who full with hatred and hard to forget and forgive someone's mistakes . Once you broke my trust , there'll be no more second chance for you to build it again . Well , enough with that . Let's talk about our similarities . We like to talk shit about others . It's kind a rude but we do it just for fun  and we didn't even disturb their life . Hahaha . We hate and like the same person . We care about people who care about us . We like to stay up late and talk about things like our future , our mistakes and our past . We're a two-faced person . We hate to keep secrets . But I can say he broke that tradition when he lied to me before . In the past la . I forget about it already . Sometimes I think he looks so cool when he serious about something . No matter how big the differences or a lot in common between us , we still can understand each other . It's been three month as a lover and and more than three years as a friend , even though so , we're still had a fight . Normal what ? Like I said , when different met common it'll be stable , fair . This thing make us look so perfect together . To me la . I don't know about other people's opinion kan . Cut that shit , we don't really need their opinion . All that we ever want just to be happy and a normal life . :)

p/s : Ahpet , jan mncabul ba kalau belum siap . t(-_-t)

Ngongot ~

I'm addict to my boyfriend . One of things that I like to do is write down his name on a paper . A lots of it . Just his name without space . I'll stop if I get tired and write it again until I'm finished . Sometimes I found myself like an idiot . Other things , I like to watch my boyfriend sleeps . He'll snore . Haha . I'll told him to stop . He will . If not I'll give him a I'll told him again and again then he stop but then he'll snore again . Moreover , he'll listen to whatever you said while he's asleep . So cute okay . The things that I hate when he busy doing other things . He'll ignore me and just focus on things that he do . I'm not just gonna let him like that . I'll distract him until he lost his focus . Whatever . I just want him to be with me . I feel unrelieved if he just playing games and didn't talk to me . Only me can do things like that . Unfair right . I know it sounds crazy . That's the reason why I'm saying that I'm addict to him . Wish we could just times together . Just us and no one else . But we can't . Fuck it . We still have to work but never mind . As long as he with me . Just simple as that . 

The happiness of mine .

The happiness of mine

It may be nothing to you

But it is to me .

The happiness of mine

Will only shown when you're around

Your smile , your laugh and your touch

Things that I wanna see , hear , feel in this life

The happiness of mine
There will be no tears to sweat

Or even blood to shed

'Cause you're right there

And help me through the day 

The happiness of mine

Make me sleep well at night

Everything seems so right

When you hold me really tight

The happiness of mine

Full with haters and fuckers

But we still go on and still love each other

The happiness of mine

There is no one else but you

My only love

So would you stay with me ?

And let the happiness stay forever too .

Oink , Oink

Dear gink , it really nice to be with you . You made my day . You make me happy and you'll never let me down . Even sometimes we had a fight but in the end we'll be just fine . Our relationship is just super fucking cool . I feel safe whenever I'm with you but extremely lonely when you're not around . I know that I'll act a little bit or should I say too childish sometimes and it'll make you mad at me . I hate it when you started to act like that . Ignoring me . I know I'm the one who start it all but there's nothing I can do . I try to change . I'm afraid that just because of all that stupid thing you'll get over me . It's all just me , it has nothing to do with you . I know . I thought that I'm matured enough but I'm not . I'm just a stupid dumb ass that like to playing around and do shit things like a jerk . But everything that I do , I swear with all my heart that I didn't mean it . I hope you still want to marry with this silly , stubborn , selfish , annoying girl . I only wish for one thing , build my life with you and live happily together until death do us part . Insha-allah .

Gadisku !

Why do you have to be so pretty ? I'm gonna die ~

C Cina

Sepet ! Sepet ! Sepet ! hahaha . <3

Cintaku

 

You're my favorite . :) I adore you .

Facts About me -_-

* I'm rude 

* I don't give a fuck about others 

* I get annoyed and mad easily at people 

* I'm a jealous type . No shit bitch .

* I'm skinny and I hate it . So fuck you .

* I'm sarcastic .

* I'm a two-faced person . Please just kill me .

* I'm a big fat liars . Get a knife and stab me .

* I'm addict to my boyfriend . 

* I don't trust people .

* I love Eyang . I'd do anything for you okay .

* I'd kill just to have more time to spend with my boyfriend . He's just way too adorable . *faint*

* I hate gastric . Stay out of my life , would you ?

* I love the time where me and him bitching about haters . Back off haters ! Die ! Die !

* I hate to be ignore .

11 Things I Like About You

#1 I like when you talk and smile to me at the same time . It feels like someone that i hate die cruelly in front of me and I'm happy with it .
#2 I like it when you do something really sweet and it fucking kills me everyday . Sometimes I wish I'm an ice at the North Pole, unfortunately I'm just an ice cream that easily melt .
#3  I like it how you make me laugh about something that doesn't make sense at all . Just a stupid joke without any punchline .
#4 I like it every time when you want me to pick on certain people that we hate and bitching about them . Fuck Yeah !
#5 I like when suddenly you look so perfect, especially at night and you make me stare at you all the time . Speechless okay . Looks like the cat bite my tongue .
#6 I like it how you attract me with all your charm . Man , you're so sweet . I'm addicted to you . :)
#7 I like to see your fingers . It's kinda weird but still look so adorable .
#8 I like it when you the retarded face of someone that we hate and it look exactly the same . You're so good in making fun of other people .
#9 I like it when you telling lies and not even me ever notice about it .
#10 I like the way you treat me .
#11 I like it how you make me put a smile on my face every time I wake up in the morning .

My One and Only

Gink 

Just so you know , I love you with all my heart .

You mean a world to me . Too important . My day would be meaningless without you .

You always be there for me .

Through the good , the bad and even the ugly .
You are my best friend as well as my lover . I'm just a girl who's in love with the most annoying , cutest , funniest , nicest and completely perfect guy in the world .
I'll always remember our promise . Don't you ever dare to forget okay .
I'll wait for you and I love you for the rest of my life .

Gadisku Yang Terpaling Cantik . :)

"Gadisku" it sounds ridiculous right ? But that's a name that I gave to my very best friend . He worth more than anything to  me . I could say that he's too important . We've been friend since three years ago . Can be said that he's the one that I tell all my problem , a shoulder to cry to , and a person to lean on . But now it's different . We're not friends anymore , we be more than it . Lovers . Personally , I also feel awkward in our situation at that time . Who could imagine that both of us could fall to each other , even our friends can't accept it and mostly 'Joe Doe' . Secretly , I fell in love with him more than a year actually . But fuck it . It's my life so I'm the only one who can decide which person that I'm gonna be with . It's all up to me . I guess I'm making the right choice . Being with him is the only thing that I want , nothing else . And I'm not gonna regret it plus he's a nice guy . Every time that I spent with him was the most beautiful thing that may not be filled by anyone else except him . No one would ever know how he really mean to me . There's no more 'the emptiness filled me to the point of agony' in my days anymore . I'm living happily now just like I wanted before . Fuck all the haters . I don't even need you in my life . Just go your own way , get a life . I think all of you should take therapy or go back to school because your stupidity already taking over your mind and it's not good . Grow up please , be more mature and stop taking care about other people's problem . To 'Joe Doe' , you'll always be the same . Nothing can change you . I'm not saying you're an ass hole but you're the one who making yourself look like one of them . All the shit that you've done to me , I'm over it . I'm not gonna let it happen twice . I know it's already happened more than twice but who really cares right . You're not meant to me and so do I . You took us for granted before and you did me wrong so you deserve it . Karma really fuck and kick you right in your ass . Accept the consequences and served your right fucker . Just so you know , knowing you is the worst thing ever happened to me . Thank God for giving me the person who really , really appreciate and love me for who I am . I'm hoping our love will stay forever because no one in this world who could replace him . He's my one and only . I fucking love you gay . 'Joe Doe' you're just an old memory , and I'll forget about it . I know :)