Afraid to lose .

I'll always remember things that you promise to me . But , 

What if , your love starts to fade away ?

What if , you don't care about me anymore ?

What if , you fall for someone else ?

What if , you hate me because of me ?

What if , you leave ?

What if , you forget about all your promise ?

What if , you took our love for granted ?

That 'what if' thing sucks as fuck . I'll get mad whenever I think about it . I know it's just me , afraid of losing you . And sometimes I'll say something that'll hurts your feeling . I hate myself because of it . I don't want you to get hurt . It's hurting me for hurting you . But still , I made the same mistakes again . All I can say , I'm sorry for what I ever said to you . Sorry for being selfish and childish . I'm not a perfect person . I fucked everything up . I'm a mess . I'm no good . I'll ruin your day . I'm a troublemaker . I'm good in nothing . I know I let you down but I never mean it . I'm sorry for what I've done . I love you with all my heart . I only afraid that someday you'll leave me . I'm afraid of losing you . I never know what will happen to me if you walk out from my life . My day would be lonely without you . I have no one else . No one will ever loved me like the way you do . It is clear to see I really need you . Just promise me you'll stay . Just so you know , you're the only one that I want . I don't wanna lose you . So don't go . 

I want you to stay . Forever .