Gadisku Yang Terpaling Cantik . :)

"Gadisku" it sounds ridiculous right ? But that's a name that I gave to my very best friend . He worth more than anything to  me . I could say that he's too important . We've been friend since three years ago . Can be said that he's the one that I tell all my problem , a shoulder to cry to , and a person to lean on . But now it's different . We're not friends anymore , we be more than it . Lovers . Personally , I also feel awkward in our situation at that time . Who could imagine that both of us could fall to each other , even our friends can't accept it and mostly 'Joe Doe' . Secretly , I fell in love with him more than a year actually . But fuck it . It's my life so I'm the only one who can decide which person that I'm gonna be with . It's all up to me . I guess I'm making the right choice . Being with him is the only thing that I want , nothing else . And I'm not gonna regret it plus he's a nice guy . Every time that I spent with him was the most beautiful thing that may not be filled by anyone else except him . No one would ever know how he really mean to me . There's no more 'the emptiness filled me to the point of agony' in my days anymore . I'm living happily now just like I wanted before . Fuck all the haters . I don't even need you in my life . Just go your own way , get a life . I think all of you should take therapy or go back to school because your stupidity already taking over your mind and it's not good . Grow up please , be more mature and stop taking care about other people's problem . To 'Joe Doe' , you'll always be the same . Nothing can change you . I'm not saying you're an ass hole but you're the one who making yourself look like one of them . All the shit that you've done to me , I'm over it . I'm not gonna let it happen twice . I know it's already happened more than twice but who really cares right . You're not meant to me and so do I . You took us for granted before and you did me wrong so you deserve it . Karma really fuck and kick you right in your ass . Accept the consequences and served your right fucker . Just so you know , knowing you is the worst thing ever happened to me . Thank God for giving me the person who really , really appreciate and love me for who I am . I'm hoping our love will stay forever because no one in this world who could replace him . He's my one and only . I fucking love you gay . 'Joe Doe' you're just an old memory , and I'll forget about it . I know :)